Thoughts

Always smiling, talking, laughing...

But once I’m alone..? Broken.

That’s all I feel,

I don’t know what to think,

Say or do anymore,

I feel as if I have no one who really understands,

I don’t know why I hold emotions in,

But I think it’s what I do best.

One thing hits after another,

As if I’m on a surfboard and I keep getting hit by the waves...

Getting thrown around in the current

Coming up gasping for air

Thinking everything’s going to be okay, just to get thrown back under...

How do I stop the cycle?

How can I make things change?

I ask myself question like this everyday,

Thinking of the things I could do to change

Even when I try I still feel like I'm in the daze of wondering,

How I’m going to succeed without support...

How do you get support if no one knows there is a problem.

I’ll get there one day...

Opening up is hard

Breaking down the walls

Letting someone in takes big steps

But I’m willing to try...