This Storm
in solace, in pause, in clarity
It's supposed to rain through the night
maybe pour
I tell the sky it's welcome
I'll even leave my window cracked
/
I pace peacefully
in expectation
inspect my room
half-naked
kneel before my shelves of stories
wear down my nails
picking at the 'used' stickers
splayed across their spines.
/
I debate dismantling some of my piles
to make new piles
counterproductive.
I've always been like this
a creature
with a furrowed brow
walking in familiar circles
leaning on my habits of isolation
/
But this storm
tempers the loneliness
and makes it a comfort
rather than a curse.
It makes me want to bend my head
to the earth
hold each of my shoulder blades
in solace
in pause
in clarity.
/
One of my earliest memories
is running outside
during a downpour
blue-lipped and full of adrenaline
Mom caught me with a towel
at the door.
From childhood ecstasy,
the joy of rainwater
has never left me.
/
I relish
each storm
for its power
and its transience.
It tells me to be still
and listen.
It tells me to wait
in the dim
and the dust
to feel small
before the arrival of thunder
and lightning
to wonder
to weep
/
Now the air
is heavy with rain sound
it feels impertinent to speak.
so I only breathe
and court relief.
I watch my white curtains dance
like friendly spirits
and wait for my heart to contain itself.
About the Creator
Erin Latham Shea
New Englander
Grad Student
Living with Lupus and POTS
Instagram: @somebookishrambles
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