There You Are

There you were trusting for another day, completely relaxed with hope

There was I, trusting in technology and skill, knowing you were a fighter

There you were, hanging on but never giving up, never doubting God's love

There was I, acknowledging God's presence and power to "heal and keep"

But God had other plans... And that's okay because it was better for you

But God had plans for me, too. To grow me in faith and take me deeper

There you are, everywhere I go and when I turn around, you pop up my son

There was I, in my imagination with you, seeing you in Heaven laughing

There you are, in my kitchen, stirring pots and taste-testing, adding spices

There was I, hearing your voice still, and sharing in our teasing banter

There you are, at the grocery store, sneaking up behind and pinching me

There am I, turning to see who dared "touch my behind," seeing you grin

There you are, telling me not to cry, to remember we will be together again

There am I, holding on to that and learning to live with that being enough