The Void

Was a stupid girl.

I thought you’d fill the void

My childhood left

When you wrapped your arms around my waist from behind me.

Was sure you’d take the trauma

And make me forget

With your fingers and mouth and intoxicating smile.

I’d dream of you protecting me

Make the little scared girl in me safe

From the world I grew up in that I don’t want to remember.

You left

But you didn’t take it all away

With you.

You just gave me more dark places

I don’t visit

More emptiness

I can’t fill.

So I get tattoos

High on the weekends

And wait for the next one to distract me

And maybe then

I’ll find peace.