The Truth Behind

It's almost mesmerizing

I can no longer sleep.

Every time I close my eyes , every time I try I think of YOU.

The fear to be outside because the pain of seeing you is worse.

You were a friend in disguise.

I needed you. As a friend.

Your intentions were different.

You forced yourself. To be something I didn't want.

I can never get your weight off. I can never wash my thoughts of the utter darkness

He was a cousin. Small bits and pieces of it surface.

On your lap.

I was a child. Innocent. Pure.

A monster is what you are

You were directly in my face and yet I was blind.

Most of all I can't forget that I said no and you did whatever you wanted

16 years. 1 month.

You both got back to your lives.

I can't.

I'm broken.

Damaged....

How do I escape this?

Where do I go?