When I was very young, my
Grandmother forgot me in the garden,
(Hot summer tomatoes, writhing hyacinths)
(Summer strawberries ripe as blood)
(Scalding sweetness behind my eyelids)
And I wandered until I came
To the dead-breath air of a bedroom.
Quilts and civilized wood,
Mirrors, torn paperbacks, pillows stuffed with goose feather.
This was where body after body was made,
The trauma of a bird deleting herself.
But above it was mounted a deer’s head.
Glassy dark eyes.
A mouth set slack, I could see the softness
Of a tongue.
Antlers, pale like bone or else branches.
Run through
With raises and roughness,
Childish thoughts wander into gleeful feeling,
Fingers meandering, remembering—
Preservation or the unsalvageable?
The deer, stuffed, undisturbed
Was to me a picture of
Masculine grace and softness, and yet to
Touch him was to be unsatisfied
(The hollowness of a body).
About the Creator
Katie Alafdal
queer poet and visual artist. @leromanovs on insta
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