The Stages of Us

A Thin Line

I hate you

A part of me hates you

It's not a decision I consciously came to

Loving you is something I seem to do

But they’ve come as a two

I hate you

For what you make me do

And you make me love you

Guilt

Guilt, with some actions it is in built

What I did wasn’t wrong

But now you’ve lied

And when the time comes I’ll have to play along

The secrets you’ve told

I’ll keep them safe

But I hope she’s easily sold

On my fake smile

Because for you I’ll try

But forced smiles only last for a while

Goodbye

Today I said goodbye

I finally found the courage to say goodbye

I don't know why, when it was all expected

I still feel so dejected

We were both unhappy

That was easy to see

But I still hoped you might fight

That part of you would want to fight for me

1:07 AM

It’s 1:07 I’m sat drinking and writing poetry alone.

In a place that’s not my home.

Yet somehow, I’m in the zone.

When did I become nomadic?

When did alcohol start to do the trick?

Why with every word I write,

Do my messed-up insides want to cry?

Recovery

Today was a good day

I enjoyed talking to you

Without longing for you

Today was a good day

Because I realised just friends

Wasn’t so far away.