The Querent

So why are barns significant?

They’re not

But you always mention them

It’s your mind that always goes there

So it’s my significance?

Yes

Can you help me understand that?

Possibly, depends on your level of reveal

What I’m willing to know about myself?

No, what you’re willing to do about it

Silence

I am willing, so can you send me there?

Send yourself

I can’t

You’re co-dependent

No, you’re superior

So go blame yourself

I don’t know why I do this work

Silence

So is this your job?

No it’s yours

Whatever

So can you help me or not?

Depends

Depends on what?

If you can see colours?

Only a few, the rest are just grey tones

Go into your mind and find colour

That’s a long way back

Go there

So will muddy browns do?

It’s your mind

I’ll dig deeper

Ok, so now flowers

Better

What’s near these flowers?

An old barn

Silence

So I did it again

Go deeper into the flowers

You mean in like a microscope?

Silence

I see dark and shade. What now?

Go deeper

So now it’s liquid

Go deeper

I see tiny moving things

Go deeper

Plasma I think

Deeper

I see strings of energy codes

Deeper

I see nothing

What do you feel?

Pulses

What colour are the pulses?

Green, blue, yellow

So now merge with the pulsed colours

What do you see?

An old barn

Silence

So was I supposed to see a barn?

You’re not meant to anything

Ok then I don’t

What next?

Choose your loop

Seems like a waste of time

It’s your time

Do you care what I choose?

Silence

Do you want another querent?

Maybe

So you’d give up on me?

Very likely

Are you planning this now?

Silence

Am I still finding colours?

Silence

So barn or flowers?

Silence

I’m in the barn, red and murky browns

Go deeper inside the colours

What do you see?

Dark and shade

What are you feeling?

Nothing

You are not in the now

Of course not, you told me to go into my mind

That’s where the now iS

You want me to remember. That’s not the now

Yes it is

You bring memory into the now

Silence

Ok, I’m seeing colours

Go deeper

I can’t

Why?

I’m back at the barn

Doesn’t really matter, it’s sameness

I don’t understand

Silence

Are you going to leave me at the barn?

Are you looking for colours?

Inside or outside?

It’s your mind trip

I’m inside, old reds

Go deeper

Light and shade

Go deeper

Same small particles

Deeper

Strings of energy codes

Seeing any patterns?

No

Feeling anything?

Yes Déjà vu and some pulses

Any colours with the pulses?

Yes, green, blue and yellow

Now merge with the pulsed colours

What do you see?

The same barn

Silence

But I want to move past the barn thing

You’re in existential crisis

Stop dramatising my vicious cycles

Stop staying in them

Ok so now I’m merged and totally one with all my pulsed colours

I don’t see that

Silence.

Ok so I lied

No you cheated yourself

So I blew it

No

I made progress?

Not really, you discovered your barn

But I don’t want that stupid barn

Well it wants you

So is it haunting me?

Wrong concept

Silence

Walk into the barn

What?

Walk right into the barn

Without opening the doors?

Silence

Ok so I’m in

Go deeper

Into which corner?

Whatever appears

What do you see?

Dark and shade

Deeper

Small particles

Deeper

Energy codes, pulses and colours

Now merge with them all

I don’t think I’ll come back

Maybe not

I can’t stop

I know