The love l cannot give

One day l decided to shut off

to deny all I know

To neglect my love, my glow

Today l am ready to go

I was paving the way

For my inner shade

 To grow out, angry, insane

Today all my life I gave away

To a price l will pay again

But to come back

Before the corruption of myself

All l wanted was not to see

I ask the doctor what do l feel?

And he anwers take this

So l start to realize my shit

I was running  away in a burning field

I started seeing things

 Things which did not exist

Good people to be mean

It was all inside me

I was harbouring too many lies

 And l even saw bad people as nice

In a total confusion I gave up

And today I am stuck

I am not a bad person

I was only hurt to the bone

By somebody l was born from

But l thought it was my fault