The loss of the Illusion

Disillusion seems to be my middle name. -

Incessant, getting to the top of my game. -

Stressed about it; things will never be the same. -

Talking about it, doesn't take away my pain. -

Rationalizing; living with the code of the switch. -

Calculating.......

Analyzing, how life, is a bitch. -

Terrible silence, and I just can't listen to it. -

Igniting knowledge; being lost, is hard to admit. -

Optimistic, that now is the time to do this! -

Nourishing myself, right now, is my only wish. -