The Fight Inside

Life is a breeze or so it seems

Most days I want to chase my dreams

My mind is in chaos lost in the sea

I'm drowning in emotions that won't leave me be

The real me is a kind and gentle soul

I must find a way to have control

Pushing you away instead of pulling you close

Dousing the flames will make me comatose

I wish I was numb so I was free

Overanalyzing my emotions is slowly killing me

I listen to the rain and let it lull me to sleep

Tonight I refuse to let myself weep

I look around and you're nowhere near

Being alone I'm overwhelmed with fear

Anxiety causing my bones to shake and rattle

I must remember I'm not alone in this battle

With this disorder i cause everyone pain

I battle my mind daily because I have everything to gain

My life feels like it is passing me by

Give me a chance and maybe I can fly

Wait I'm already flying I'm so far up nothing can touch me

So far above that I wish that you could understand and see

It's beautiful what's actually inside

This thing my emotions always hide

Burning a hole inside my chest

Will my heart ever have a moment to rest

Wait it's not the truth

My emotions are over exaggerated and confuse you

Confuse you but wait... For me they're overpowering

It's like living in a storm that's always glowering

I put it in my words when I write

Take it all in and try to understand my fight

I try my best to fake a smile

In hopes I will feel better by going the extra mile

My life is not that bad but it's so extreme

I'm so happy that I have you on my team