The Essence of "Home"
A Nebulous Collection
What could it really mean - home?
Is it a place? Feelings? Memories?
To me, Home is a nebulous collection of
a great many personal things.
Sometimes, home is a blanket
for the soul.
Sometimes, it's a dark place that shackles me
to memories worth forgetting.
It can be a place of respite for my heart,
an origin point that I can never shake.
A place that can can ground me in this chaotic world,
where all of my experiences and changes
can be seen in perspective.
Home is a place where my anxieties and stresses
can't reach me,
at least not as easily.
Sometimes, home to me is that feeling I get
when I've had a rough day at work, but know
that after clocking out, I'll get to drive back
to sanctuary and comfort.
The sounds of the air conditioner when I'm trying to
drift off to sleep,
or the nostalgic memories of the past that visit me
in my dreams.
The smile of my grandfather as he
cheered me on,
or the trouble I'd get into
with my sister and brother
as we pretended the world was whatever we wanted it to be
that day.
But home was also defined
by the contrast of what it wasn't.
Feeling alone in a crowd,
being rejected, isolated, punished for things I didn't understand,
It was defined by being a place where
the words and the fists of others,
instruments that regrettably shaped a part of me,
couldn't find me, as long as I was there,
just as we couldn't understand the significance of light
without darkness,
or the feeling of warmth
without cold.
Home could be that feeling of longing for
being able to visit those simpler days just one more time,
and sometimes, it's responsible for the sadness I feel
in knowing how impossible that is.
Home can be memories of what used to be...
The first summer I managed to connect with my father,
staying up until 3:00 AM laughing together and playing games,
just because his work injury kept him at the house.
Or time spent with friends no longer around,
family no longer with me,
even though a piece of them will always live on inside of me.
But Home can also be what life has currently gifted me,
waking up in the morning next to someone
who truly understands me, accepts me and loves me,
scars and all,
and reciprocating that love.
It can be the pets and companions that are always happy
to see me walk through the door,
who look at me with warmth and affection, no matter
how the world spat me back out that day.
Home, to me, is an abstract thing, a nebula,
a collection of memories, feelings, and concepts that
when brought together by the gravity of life's trials,
forms the star that beats in our chests,
the core of who we are.
About the Creator
Brandon Laurenz
A fledgling writer with a passion for captivating stories who is just getting started on their journey.
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