The Emptiness

Do I really deserve to have love?

Do I deserve to have more than harmless sexting and nudes?

I don't think so.

I find myself getting what I am allowed to have and trying to find contentment.

Being alone for so long, never glance has been given towards me, it only seems appropriate that I take what I can get.

Sexting and nudes.

How else would I be able to find someone to show me any kind of lust?

How could I not take what I can get?

It could be my only chance.

Chance for what though? A chance to have fake attention, fake lust, fake needs?

If this is what I can get, I don't see the problem, however there maybe a problem.

I want more, to feel love and emotion, not just lustful actions.

But if all I can have are sexts and nudes, I will take what I can get.

If being alone is my story then I will take my story.

Wanting more is not enough, the cards of love are not for everyone no matter how bad the need is.

Sure I am "still young," but most that I have met have more experiences then I have ever had.

Am I crazy? Too needy? I push away what I want, I think I am crazy.

Crazy for the things that I cannot have.

Am I the only who is experiencing this need and desire to have more, to have what they cannot have?

I cannot be the only one in this world who has this emotion.

Am I the only one?