The Elephant I Ignored

by Yannick Taylor 8 months ago in heartbreak

The Narcissist and the Romantic

The Elephant I Ignored

We met on a Fall evening. The air was crisp and I was single and ready to mingle.

You made the chill of the air go away with your warm, velvet voice. You made me laugh. You made me dance. You made me happy.

We traveled many places. We went near and far. We even cried together.

When ever our bodies connected, we quivered and we released the air of love into the air that was unmatched.

In the midst of the love, there was a but.

There was an elephant in the room. I ignore this elephant because I was scared of lonely. I embraced this elephant as if it was normal and healthy.

This elephant wreaked of toxicity, but I adapted and lived.

Your narcissism was that elephant. Your narcissism caused me to doubt friends. It even made me question my sanity.

After we parted ways, your elephant trampled on my character. I then realized that this was a reflection of you. I realized that you were my Jezebel and I was your Ahab.

You controlled me and made me doubt myself. You made me lose hope in love.

You sabotaged friendships because you just couldn't let me go. I suffered for nine months. I took the blame for your mistakes.

Years later I stand free from you. I am restored. I am new.

I was scarred because I ignored the elephant. I will not make that mistake again.

Thank you for showing me your true colors.

The next time I see an elephant, I will run like the wind.

This happened because I ignored the elephant in the room.

Your narcissism is a big elephant and there is nothing you can do to hide it.

Do you care?

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Yannick Taylor

Hi. I'm Yannick. I'm a Black Transgender Woman. I am a recording artist, blogger, and Vlogger.  I write about Transgender Rights, HIV/AIDS education and more!!! Follow me on Twitter: YannickTMusic

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