The Death of Us

The echoing voices in my mind

Sound a lot like you

Repeating all the things

You said that we'll do.

Your ring still sits on my nightstand

While my heart is singing, I do.

Without you here

My dreams of you asking me

Will you marry me

Turn into a nightmare.

When I wake

I have to face the harsh truth

That you're no longer here.

We decided to go our separate ways

And let things be

At that moment, I declared you were dead to me.

No harsh feelings; I just had to let you go.

Yet you said let's work on our friendship

And I said no.

To protect me from any confusing feelings

I had to throw in the ropes.

Now I'm stuck convincing myself

It doesn't hurt

And our memories don't haunt me

But it only makes things worse.

The series of flashbacks remind me of the missed opportunity.

Now I'm sharing my last words with you like I was giving a eulogy.

Initiating the season of grieving

And leaving me dressed in all black

Until the season changes to healing.