The Call of the Void

I can't seem to silence the evil within

These battles in my head that I never win

All I really want is to make it out

Of this war in my headspace that makes me doubt

My sanity, my identity

I've lost myself and serenity

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It comes and goes

In waves I suppose

I'm not okay

I'm not even close

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I'm terrified of the voices in my brain

They aren't mine, but I can't make them go away

I'm afraid it's something I can't avoid

I must not answer to the call of the void

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It's like a cancer I can't overcome

Infecting my nerves, making me numb

Burrowing it's fangs deep inside of my soul

Eating what's left like a supermassive black hole

Will I survive, Will I succumb

The darkness is taking control of my lungs

//

It comes and goes

In waves I suppose

I'm not okay

I'm not even close

//

I'm terrified of the voices in my brain

They aren't mine, but I can't make them go away

I'm afraid it's something I can't avoid

I fear I will answer the call of the void

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Am I a degenerate for

These thoughts that I cannot control anymore

Am I sick and twisted because

Of these intrusive thoughts that I just cannot pause

I hear their commands, I have to avoid

I refuse to answer the call of the void.