The Broken Sister

To my family that broke me,

I need you to know,

This pain haunts me daily.

I know you don't care,

I get that now.

I grasp illusions,

In my mind.

Wishing things would go back,

Back to normal,

But normal is gone.

You're filled with hate,

Hate that spreads.

It’s like an infection,

That feeds on joy.

Not just my joy,

But my kids.

They don’t understand.

You were all once heroes.

Even I looked up to you.

Now you're villains.

Destroyers of happiness.

The darkness has consumed you.

You’re blinded with rage,

Unable to see the truth.

Stuck in tunnel vision,

With no way out.

You’ve placed the blame on the wrong ones.

You’re cruel words and actions still eating me alive.

They fester inside me,

Keeping me from forgetting.

The agony of each memory is like a pinprick.

Slowly piercing my heart,

And each time a little more love leaks out.

I feel it dragging me down,

And I can’t escape.

The chain has a hold on me,

And it’s getting shorter and shorter.

How does one let go of family?

I don’t want to be like you,

A hate-filled monster stealing joy from others.

I know I need to fight,

Fight the demons you gave me.

It’s a none stop battle,

But I refuse to give in.

I will prevail.

I will break the chain.

My light will devour your darkness and rage,

And I know one day,

I will be ok.

Sincerely,

The Broken Sister