the broken mind

The Broken Mind

By

Sky Boivin 

Other books:

An Assortment of Poetry

Scattered Emotions

Inspired Thoughts

Random Thoughts

Something Loved

Anger Withheld

A Twisted Vine

The Alice Poems

Faye Love Poems

A Moon Filled Song

Thoughts To Be Had

A Natural Way

Beyond Time

Faded Memories

Also:

Their Hope Within The Flames

Life Without You

The Sisters Two Chronicles:

The Queen Faye

To the narrassist

They have all left your sandbox

Years ago

No one wishes to play your game

Any longer

They have all deserted you

As you cry yourself the victim

They have left your sandbox

You stopped sharing your toys

Long ago

You teased them to join you

And then demand they play

By your rules

Never giving in to theirs

You're vile and vindictive

No one wishes you around

Your sandbox is just a barren wasteland

Of wishful memories

You partook in

Making your little world "perfect"

You became your own martyr

The villain who cried victim

The evil who thought themselves hero

You are not who you say you are

You never were

And you never will be

11.22.2019

The demon shoes

Flames burn bright and slow

As she slips from the cursed shoes

From long forgotten pasts

Shadowed spirits reach out to her

Grasping at her arms

Flames unyielding around her

Yet they do not burn

Only surrounding her

In their protest to remain

She slides the skirts of her dress

Up higher to avoid tearing them

As she pushes one heel

From her foot

Releasing her toes free

Then slowly shifting her legs

To do the same to the next

The flames engulf her faintly again

As she stands up and strolls

Across the room

Setting the shoes into their chest

Locking them away

Once again

The candle flames burn bright

As she leans back in her chair

Fixing her skirts to be as they once were

11.23.2019

Ragdoll Luster

Just the ragdoll

Alone on the shelf

Same old dust bunny

To keep me company

No one ever around

When she might be in need

But always there

When they reach for her

Lonely little

Ragity old thing

Fabric old and withered

Never to be repaired

She once was shiny

Brand new

Held tight

Held close

Feared to be lost

Now she has dulled

Greyed with time

The allure and luster

gone with the time

No longer wanted

No longer needed

She sits quietly

With the dust bunny

By her side

Alone in the world

Nothing to gain

Forever lost

To those who remained

11.24.2019

Who am I?

Who am I?

I’m just nobody

Just a being in a body

Just a thing to be set aside

I am worthless

I am worn beyond the time

The tides wash me away

Like I am driftwood set astray

The old ragged doll

Left behind in the sandbox

Alone and old;

frozen from the cold

I am not needed

Forgotten about forever

Always to be at call for your time

Unwanted until needed

But not necessary

Used in every way possible

Until I say no

Then they snarl and growl

Rear their ugly heads

Slash with sharp and vile tongues

Words once unsaid

Being ripped apart to my very core

Until there is nothing more

Never ceasing; never ending

Forevermore

12.12.2019

Unwanted

Unwanted

Pushed away

Not needed any more

The old withered ragdoll

Tossed in the dried-up crumbling sandbox

Caked with dirt and grime

Kicked aside like nothing

Never mind the old shelf

She used to be placed up on

She has been left in the play yard

Never to be seen

Lost and to be forgotten

Never to be needed again

Days

Months

Years

Pass as she lays withering in the rain

The sadness taking over her

Slowly growing to a nothingness

Deep inside her core

Left unwanted

Evermore

12.12.2019

Mad Broken Mind

She stands alone in the lonely fields

The distance far and cold

The wind blowing at her hair

As she looks upon the barn

Dark, black and cold

As the mist thickly rolls in

Slowly moving along the cold snow

Freshly fallen and icy cold

Her heart saddened

She feels no chill

That takes hold down to her bones

Gripping her deep down to her core

She stares off in the distance

Glaring at the barn

Wondering just where it all went wrong

Her heart broken

Her mind gone mad

She stands alone in the lonely fields

Staring through the misty nothing

1.4.2020

The fortress of her mind

She lays back upon the sofa

Of her hidden away place

Her private latibule fortress

Safe and secure in her mind

A hiding place to run to

When she needs to slip away

Her broken mind inside

Where she wishes to stay and play

Shattered glass thrown about

From fits of anger

She could not hold within any longer

Screams of the past

Echo the walls

She lays back upon the sofa

Playing her fingers along the floor

With diamond tears

From pains before

Scattered about her so

The fireplace crackles softly

The only sense of warmth

As she closes her eyes to dream

Of finally finding peace

1.5.2020

All she knows

She buries under the covers

Sorry for her ignorance

Alone in her mind now

Thoughts to nag at herself

Forgetfulness on some things

A failure in her life

Nothing will be changed

No matter how hard she tries

A failure is all she is

All she ever has been

All she ever will be

No matter how hard she tries

She is supposed to be a healer

Knowing all somehow

Yet, she fails at that evermore

Cannot even fix herself anymore

She hides and wonders if she will ever

change for the better

1.5.2020

The blank page

Sitting before a blank page

Nothing comes to mind.

Tears earlier in the day

Nothing came to mind.

Shadows floating past

Taunting her mind,

Still she sits before the page

Tracking back her mind.

The page stares back at her,

Idly taunting her to stroke it.

The pen sits still as she thinks

Yet nothing comes to mind.

Yet nothing, comes to mind.

1.9.2020

The wild sapling

She was a sapling

Young a free

Not a care in the woods

Soon to grow beyond the forest floor

Before long days

Rains and winds

Becoming wild before too long

Years breaking her in time

Splits in two never breaking her stride

From wild thundering lightning strikes

Sending winds whipping about

She started as a sapling

Yet grew to a beautiful forest

From becoming wild and free

1.9.2020

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In the velvet darkness

She stalks through the halls

Mirrors lining her path

Reflecting the dim flicker of candlelight

Her only way to see by.

She comes to the chambers

The door left ajar behind her

As she enters silently

Approaching carefully

The stand holding the book

Holding guardian of memories past

Flipping through pages

Written centuries ago

Leaving a delicate reminder

of spells & secrets

Left forgotten to those

Once were now gone forever more

She slips a silver locket from her pocket

placing the blackest of roses

After wrapping such locket

Of ages past

Gently upon the open pages of the book and closes it shut

To be forgotten just as the others once before

1.19.2020

Stay

She will never say it out loud.

She will always put others needs

Before her very own.

Caring, loving, understanding

Always she tries to be.

She will lay awake

Endless and sleepless nights;

Alone in her thoughts

Alone in her pain.

Wishing she knew the words

To send things away.

Endless restless nights

Until they suddenly become dawn

Wishing for someone to hear her cry

Deep within her own soul

As she tends to them all.

She will never say it out loud

No matter how much

she screams it inside.

She will always be the one

To remain helping others

She wishes she knew the words

To fix it all.

She will shed the silent tears forevermore;

Awake and alone

She shall feel doomed to be

Wishing someone will

But she will never say the word

Stay

1.27.2020

Failure

Alone in thoughts

Mind reeling fast

Nothing to stop it

Nothing to distract her

Wanting to crawl

Out from her own skin

Running away

Is all she can think about

Stuck in a forever wheel

Going no where fast

Spinning in circles

She is a failure to all

She crosses paths with

Never able to help

Never able to heal

She will forever be cursed

To walk the world alone

No one will ever want her

Because she is cursed so

Forever doomed to be alone

She will never say stay

When she really needs it

Alone to cry each night

In her room and gloom

Her broken heart

She wears upon her sleeve

Wanting to help

Yet failing them all

At the same time

Cursed in another life

To walk alone

The failure that she is

meant to become

1.30.2020

The silent forest

The silence of the forest

Can be both

Tranquil and deafening

all at the same time

Peaceful sounds that sooth

Rustle of leaves as the wind

Blows gently through their branches

Deafening silence because one is alone

Church bells echo

As they chime the hour

Each long lonely chime

Until silent once again

Birds chirping their laments

To one another

Or warnings to back away

Maybe the babble of a frozen brook

Under your feet as you walk along

Things are different

When winter arrives

Silent travels further than it did

once before

1.30.2020

Soar Little Butterfly

A Caterpillar turned butterfly

Without anyone noticing

She grew alone and quiet

Shyed away to words of hate

Forgetting a dream

She longed so hard

Turned to butterfly

Beautiful to their eyes

Forget such words told before

They mean nothing, nothing more

Soar high little flutterby

And show the world

Just how beautiful you truly are

2.9.2020

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She speaks telepathically

As she lays awake in their bed

Awaiting her heart to return home

Heart Messages

Sent out to her beloved

As night draws further on

She waits bathed in moonlight

As a response she feels comes

He speaks telepathically back

A Midnight Calm washes over her

When soon telepathically

Becomes real arms

Wrapping her close to home

2.20.2020

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Every other sound

Drown

Drown

Drown

By the sound

Sound

Sound

Of the water

Falling and babbling

Along its path

The leaf rustler

Has long since gone

Months ago from when it came

Been and gone

Not a trace remains

From whence it came

2.24.2020

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Swans mate for life

I am no swan

I am no longer even a pearl

Dull, Faded and crushed

Beyond all repair

I am beyond damaged

Hanging on by a thread

The fates viciously threw

Down at me

Without a care in the world

To what would happen to me

No longer recognized by myself

Nevermind being told who

I should be

I am not their ideal person

My soul is not theirs

It never was

I try to fight to be me again

Always the struggle

To find my way out

Being told I am wrong

To be who I am

Was never in my cards

The fates left me to wither alone

They stand and watch silently by

I am not that swam you seeked

I was never theirs

I belonged to Avalon

The daughters of her

I am not the swan

I was never meant to be such

I used to be the pearl

But I have been crushed

Beyond all repair

2.27.2020

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He brings her song to life;

A song she never thought

Could ever be heard again.

melodies flowing once more

From deep within her soul,

With every delicate caress

Kisses that bring out

Harmonizing sighs she had forgotten.

She once thought all was lost;

This little pearl was crushed

Until his chords played to her

Calling to her soul.

Their souls meeting in song

Harmonizing melodies belonging to them

Now they belong to each other;

Their souls are one.

Dancing to their true song

Under moonlight skies

Twinkling stars joining with

dancing fireflies around them

The night sky belongs to them

As he brings her song to life for them

2.27.2020

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She who lays in wait

Never allowing life to pass her by

Always searching

For the brighter side.

Her eyes breath life

To weary souls.

Brightening days

With simple, caring words.

She is a blessing

To those who meet her passing by

A beautiful butterfly

Set free to the world

Teaching others

How to be as free as she

2.27.2020

His gypsy dancer

She floats about the room

Dancing as though on air.

Eyes burning with fiery passion

Gypsy fluid movements

In each twirl of her steps.

His fingers caressing piano keys

Without ever looking at the ivories

His eyes never leaving the sight

Of his beloved encanto;

Mesmerizing her every move.

Long blonde tresses

Bounce upon her shoulders,

As he catches faint glimpses lower

When her skirts billow about her body.

Candlelight casting shadows

That make her beautiful tresses,

Glow brighter in the darkness.

Beautiful evening shared

Between only these two lovers.

Golden skirts twirling with her

Encompassing this creature of his.

His beautiful queen transformed into gypsy dancer by simple notes

his fingers glide along,

Caressing ivories.

She dances her way about the room

Until he finally pauses in his playing

Together they join

Twirling around the room

Wrapping arms around the other

As the world disappears for them

3.26.2020

Stitch my soul

stitch my soul with

your soft words,

your sensual caresses,

and your sweet kisses.

As we lay under stars

in soft, lush grass

giggling softly

in each other's arms.

Shooting stars

launching a dream

as we whisper wishes

into the wild blue.

Continued dreams

of our unfinished manuscript

We leave nothing

left behind.

You stitch my soul

with your soft words

together with yours.

3.29.2020

Orchid Dreams

Ocean Fire

Deep within

Our kiss

On starry nights

As we stroll along

Quiet sandy beaches

Waves crashing

While we share

A warm fire

Lost in our world

Sweet scent

Of orchid dreams

Drift along

As we lay upon pillows

Under starry skies

Drifting to sleep

To waves crashing

In each other's arms.

3.29.2020

Sweet apron strings

She gathers ingredients

Tying up Apron strings

Around her slender waist

She hums softly

As she works away

Mixing bowls

Piled high

She wipes away

At her forehead

Dirty dishes

Set beside the sink

She slides pans

Inside an oven

Cleaning while she waits

Still time before ready,

She dances as she hums more

Sweet treats bake

Everything cleaned up

She smirks

When she imagines

The look on her beloved's face

As he enjoys

The sweetest tastes

Upon his lips

4.11.2020

Wild Sunrises

Climbing Wild Sunrises

Soaring starry skies

A beautiful world

That surrounds us

Brilliant colors

Cast amber golden glows

Around us as we kiss

Goddess of moonlight

Reflects against

Peaceful stilled waters

We chase day turned night

Until the day returns again

Arm in arm

We lay under stars

Waiting to climb wild sunrises

Once more

4.18.2020

Dragonfly Dreams

Classic humidity

Found in the late summer

Sunshine bright

As the nests made

Months before

Now hatch

Tiny things crawl out

Now grown larger

As they dance around

Zipping and darting

The hum of iridescent wings

Fly past my ears

As I stand amidst them

Hundreds of dragonflies

Dancing around me

Bring a sense of excitement

One with nature

In this very moment

This is what dragonfly dreams

Are made of

5.11.2020

Behind lupine eyes

Mesmerizing,

Captivating.

One cannot help,

But to be lost

In such eyes.

Beautiful,

serene.

Such tranquility

To be held

Behind lupine eyes.

Bright,

crystalline hues

Sending off a sense of calm

A vast sea held inside.

Such richness,

If one is allowed

Such privileges

To have these gaze upon them.

One wishes for allowance

To such sweet surrender

To the lupine eyes

5.11.2020

The note

He came home

Late in the evening

Their house silent

But the sounds of the evening

Upon their side table,

A note beside a glass

Of his favorite drink:

'Beloved,

Ready for the evening

Then come meet me

Midnight at the creek

- with love'

The note read.

She waited by the creek

Blanket laid out

Picnic spread out for them

Lanterns glowed softly

As stars shone brightly

There she stood

Like a passion's song

The palest of dresses

Flowing in a soft breeze

The moonlight shimmering

Upon her skin

He stood in the trees

Watching her dancing

While she waited

Then took his place,

Embracing her in his arms

Leading her about the grass

There they danced

Til the morning came

And they slumbered

wrapped in blankets,

Watching the sunrise

Their midnight by the creek.

5.11.2020

The fortune

The fire roars

Bright and tall

The fortune teller smiles

As she leans in close

Whispering in ears

The jingle of gold coins

Upon a wooden table

Payment for the future

Young eyes reflect

Candlelight flickers

As one leans closer still

Hanging on every word spoken

Will what is said

Come to pass?

She has paid

She will hope

As the fortune teller smiles

Watching a glimmer of hope

Walking away

5.14.2020

Hopeless

If I fall

Will you catch me?

Will you let me lay there and crumble?

If I feel helpless inside

Will you stand there and sigh?

The hopelessness inside

Consuming me

Overwhelming me to the core

No matter the words shared

I feel alone to the lore

If I fall

Will you be there?

To pick up the broken pieces

The hopeless feelings

To be glued back together

With words of kindness

Not despair?

Will it even help?

Would it even begin

To heal a glimmer of part?

So as to not come apart?

If I fall

Will anyone truly care?

Lend a hand to help

Or just stand there and stare?

Mocking in their minds

As they have always done

There in lays the hopelessness

The despair

They stand there

But are they really there?

6.7. 2020

Forest Dancing

With in the depths of the woods

The trees breath life

At every bend

Flowers spring forth

Under leaves decay

Death from fall

Springs life anew

When warmth and sun return

Breezes play upon branches so

Sway gently the nests of birds

Songs fill the air

As scents rise up

The forest dances

As life is brought forth

6.7.2020

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