The 4 F's
How is your autonomic nervous system wired to respond?
I used to live my fear in freeze
Face it with a front of fawn
But I was just thinking today
While sitting in the humid aftermath of rain
Out on my back porch
And realized that I had a kind of
Unseeable, invisible pain response
From the outside anyways
No one could think to imagine
The red hot terror dripping into me
Slowly filling my blood with sriracha
Burning me from fingertips to toes
From the inside out
No one knew
How could they
When the scariest moments
Only make me a silent
A still, unmoving ocean
Flowing without twitching a muscle
A suspended animation of sorts
I don't sob, I smile
Bubbly, fearful laughter
Erupts from my throat
Instead of screams
There's no way
Anyone could ever know
That I've been consumed with horror
Every brittle bone in my body
Bending just to not break
But shaking nonetheless
A rattling mess
With a frozen grin slapped on
About the Creator
Lolly Vieira
Welcome to my writing page where I make sense of all the facets of myself.
I'm an artist of many mediums and strive to know and do better every day.
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