Supernova
This poem is published in my 2014 Bluelight Press chapbook, No Longer An Ingenue
“ What is to give light must endure burning”
-Victor Frankel
Your words’ barbed edges still quiver
beneath the flesh of my heart,
your hatred a cooling weight
I feel obliged to carry.
I forget I ran for liberation.
I escaped to save our son,
the life you wished to terminate
at gestation. I crossed you-
never cross paths with a moving train.
I was a bad girl.
I stayed pregnant.
Now I am a woman
with a four-year-old you want to father.
Suddenly he is your soul.
I am supposed to forget
those blistering phone calls,
though my ears still burn
from your invectives.
I am supposed to forget
you told the DHS I was an unfit parent
while you smoked dope after teaching kindergarten.
I have spent too much time apologizing,
defending you, excusing you,
believing I deserved your hatred
since I dared to conceive without your consent.
This bitterness is a weight
I must set aside.
If I relinquish my camouflage
and dance in the fire,
your words cannot hurt me.
I will absorb them into my own flame
as I go nova,
releasing the restraint caused
living in time
to other peoples’ lies and expectations.
There will always be predators.
I am not prey.
No longer satisfied to live
a moving target,
I step into my glory.
I have remembered the purpose of being burned—
to be reborn.
About the Creator
Megan D. Robinson
elf by inclination.
lover of words, dancing, and witchcraft.
journalist, poet, storyteller, visual and performing artist.
abuse surviver, single parent with adult child, former dog mom.
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