Suffocated Lies

I’m suffocating in your lies

like I didn’t need more thick

smoke wrapped around my neck

as you squeeze tighter and every bone

in my body tries to push you away

But with every squeeze

With every breath I slowly

become another lifeless soul

Remembering how your eyes

Glistened when you heard my name

Remembering how your smile

Lightened up the room

Remembering the way you

Gently grabbed my face and

Pulled me in for a kiss as if

It was the very first time

Remembering how you

Your voice alone could send

A party inside my tummy

But Just like that... just like that

Your voice sent

Shivers down my spine

Your eyes No longer glistened

In fact your eyes became dark

Just like the place I used to be in

the place you yourself said

you’d save me from but instead

you became the darkness

Your smile faded and became

anger and extreme rage

Your gentle hands became the

Reasons behind all the bruises

and bumps around my

Entire body

Your voice was the reason

for my cries

“Pleasure” wasn’t willingly

You built yourself inside my walls

Like I was yours to keep

Afraid to scream for help

Afraid to fight back

With every inch of my body

It was no longer mine

I was no longer me

as if i was one of those girls who

constantly fought with their reflection

These nights only got longer

Until the night you wrapped

your hands around my neck

Only this time you didn’t

let go when my shaking hands

Tried pushing you away

You looked right in my eyes

As if you didn’t know me

As if my name completely

Left your vocabulary

And for that I am to blame...