sudden snakes...

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Sudden snakes in my brain

what a waste are my inaudible cries

mental welts I give myself

because I made you leave

now you hate me

fuck my life

it's all just too hard to believe.

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Inaudibly I crumble and fall

into the dirt

don't bury me, just leave me here

dead inside, inert.

I died the day you left me

I'd never felt so hurt.

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Hope in the shape of Zoloft

just isn't doing the trick.

I read our chats over and over,

seeing the flogging thud of failure,

knowing how much I lost

leaves me feeling sick.

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You said I was toxic, maybe that's true,

I only know I've never loved anyone

the way I love you.

My mental mosh pit, my hodgepodge mind

i feel so much, but I'll never say

and the snakes in my brain will

probably never go away.

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Thanks for reading! - Sam