storms

i waited

for the day

i would learn

to hate you

instead of pining

for your love

that never was.

i waited for beautiful

rage

that would warm

my heart

because you never did.

i waited for fury

to take me

like a storm

and wash away

my longing

for your smile.

but it never came.

and i still cannot

hate you

even though

you took away

the light in my eyes

and the wild in my soul

and you do not even know

that you did.

legs dangling

off the dock

i look to the white sky

with no clouds

and pray for lightning

to strike.