Still Scared

You saw lots of things growing up

Familiar with the feeling of getting lost

Where you are coming from, only I know

Atleast you got only numb and not cold

Spent too much time trying to heal you

Certain times you are an excuse for what I do

Armor so young to protect yourself

Stories staring at you from the shelf

Got the lion's share so you couldn't duck out

Crosses you never asked for

You never complained or pout

I think we need to strip the armour ,it's been a curse

Change happened when I made effort

Feelings, more green than blue

Searched into my heart, forgave Zeus

So I am taking you now to court

I know inside you're still scared

Of what the future might have prepared

Seeing good things and thinking we deserve less

We once thought death was what would save us

The pain we had to endure

With our demons we went to war

I need you to know it wasn't pretence

Telling you this to clean up my conscience

The ship we were in did go off-course

The journey has n0t be that fun

The dream is still alive, that's for sure

Even though sleeping no longer comforts

Trying to relax and trust my chauffeur

So much effort in something obscure

I am painting in a empty museum

My psych , probably already insured

Clarity in my thoughts

Nobody's at the door

Reality sure does hurt

Holding on just hurts more