Still looking

It was always a happy place

Bright, cheerful

I was loved and I was happy

I got restless

Tired of staying still

I went out into the world

And for a while, it was good

I made new friends

Found a new home

But I wasn’t good enough

They didn’t want me

I tried to die

They wouldn’t let me

I was sent home

But home wasn’t there anymore

It was an echo of what used to be

I was more restless than ever

He was hurt and I wanted to help

She tried to kill me

I had to run away

I don’t know anyone

Even two years later

I had to make a new home

But I’ve failed

This isn’t home

It never was

I’m lost

I long for what home used to be

Warm, loving

Happy

Maybe I can have that again

A place to call home

Or a person

Or a feeling

For now I’m still looking

And I’ll look until I find it