Starlight Can't Pass

Shadow won't come inside,

keeper of candle,

avenger

or denier,

I come to this gate

in the night,

I cannot find it in the sun,

bright morning covers door,

I can't get out,

I wait for darkness

to embrace what's left

of anguish embers.

***

Open the gate,

let me take shelter inside forest

cold, velvet love

the one I chased

the one that ended

my spirit

and each hope.

***

I still go after sunset,

I know not where the pebbles hide,

I search, my eyes tired of petals,

ready for fire rainbow

into this nightmare that unfolds

each time I feel warmth close

each breath I hold

in kindness, laughter,

and the song

that can shatter the ghosts,

they are my friends,

I can't say no,

I won't let go.

***

Mind flows inside a stream

of endless memories,

unloved,

unseen,

adored in sight, not soul

beloved for a while,

left in a precipice

a birthday cake that's got no taste,

no color,

and no wish,

where have I been

why have I stepped so far, so deep,

I can't turn back.

***

Sweet fragrance hides the snakes,

I see a threat in every tree,

can I trust flowers once again,

let them show path to yearning

a new wish,

dew glistens when sun goes,

it waits for second chances,

desire to melt

inside waterfall

where have I gone,

where can I stay,

can this doorstep be mine, ours

once more?

***

Hurtful remembrance

of doorways closed

and shattered,

of hugs that turned to ice,

of mornings inside blight,

searching shadow under the sun,

I will go on,

come back,

stay by my side.

***

© 2022 Amy Christie

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Originally published on Simily