She carries me, my soul.
My aching, tired bones wrapped in weathered skin
that sheds and thins and fades like
pages torn of overuse and reading myself over
and over.
She will carry me along the curvature of the earth
into time and across my life
until there is nothing left but my spine.
I am an infant in her infinite arms
and I lull to sleep as she swaddles me
like the mother I once knew.
I am her, my soul, but she often eludes me
in the shadows of the deep black-green,
in the creek of my childhood,
in the spruce trees of my scraped elbows,
in the dirt of my dead ancestors.
She has been bare breast and proud chest.
Traits of Eve and Adam,
the eater of the apple and the resistor of temptations.
She has sailed over thousands of seas.
She killed and was killed and watched die,
so many.
She is both Lilith and Virgin Mother.
Fruit and worm
She eats of the sweetness of life and consume its sugars
until rot feeds the dirt to return again.
I have only a time to learn her ways,
to reach out my hand and touch her face.
I will sail seas and die to become her
until I fade into the deep black-green
I will pursue her —
My soul, my mother, me.
About the Creator
Kaitlin Oster
Professional writer.
Owner - Shadow Work Consulting, LLC
David Lynch MFA Program for Screenwriting with MIU, graduation 2023
Writing collaboration or work, speaking engagements, interviews - [email protected]
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