Soul searching from within

One, two, one two, testing,testing.

Sound check, 808 check!

That's how I feel my life is like sometimes

A technical checking in of sound and waves. But that rhythmic blues won't save my soul.

Checking if the sound from my voice is coming out clean, so that people can hear me clear, won't save me either.

But no, a sad face emoji 😞😞 is only left to represent my mojo.

I sometimes wish I could upgrade my soul,

Only if souls cost some few pennies and shillings. Maybe smiley faces would be flying up in every household ceilings.....🤗🤗🤗🤗.

But that's wishful thinking to me, towards a mindless marking of my soul and journey.

What can I do, I ask my poor soul?

Total silence lingers in the air immediately after asking that quietly.

Stupid me, souls don't talk, cause they don't have any vocal cords.

But what must I do, asked my conscience.

Oh, let me introduce him too!

His the only clear subconscious individual that exists within me.

"Mr soul"doesn't even compare to this fellow. Too genuine, a fatal thinker who doesn't strategize crap for too long.

He doesn't waste time like soul, and doesn't entertain foul thinking and behavior. His too impatient and too partial.

His that friend you love to hate, but his too good to be put to waste. He beats the taste out of most fools mouth. And makes them bite the time found in each one of them mindset. You can't really pin point him, whether he is an introvert or an extrovert. But he is who he is.

Enough with your intro, what was that again, I need what?

Forgiveness, For-what?

Subconscious: You need to forgive yourself, in order for you to be able to forgive others. You are trapped in your own figment of your imagination thinking people need to ask forgiveness from you. But no you need forgiveness from within. Soul searching starts from within, not from beneath you.

Me: I would be damned Sub, I never knew this is deeper than I envisioned.

I need to soul search from within.