Sorry

I believed what you said I trusted you I believed I was safe with you I trusted that you would still accept me When I got things wrong or made no sense I thought you could see it I wasn't myself I let myself believe you cared I know it's my fault that I pushed you away It was the last thing I intended There are many reasons But hard to explain I have tried, but clearly I failed I don't have the words to say how I feel But I know I am losing control I feel like I'm screaming But nobody hears I'll try to pretend that I'm OK But it's been so long that I have not been I don't know how to be who I was I thought I had found me I should have known better Than to believe I had a true friend I want to to give up, I'll never belong I'm sorry for thinking I could

Would it hurt less or more If I believed That you were not being controlled? Perhaps you can't see what's in front of you I think you master knows that I can I know I've been selfish It wasn't meant I needed someone to hear 'Though I try, I know I don't get things right Please be there to catch me if I fall