Someone

there was once a man I fell head over hills for, and all I understood was his touch

i knew he was handsome.

I heard his passion

I understood his hustle, but I

couldn't feel him

How had he hid himself in plain sight?

Why didn't he accept he was the vibe I wanted in my life?

Its like:

You're here but away.

You're open but closed.

You don't talk but you listen.

WE had danced under the moon several times: Nature was our thing.

at least I thought...

I called myself pouring out my soul out, and hit a rock.

the redirection.

"I considered"

Maybe it's not time,

Or perhaps I could build myself

I saw myself taking care of your family, but you didn't see that far

He had said:

"It's not that deep"

And meant JUST THAT

Now I am left with the fact I have to find the better, HE KNEW, I deserved.

I wish I could accept it, like I accepted you --

Maybe it was an delusion,

I came to the conclusion:

my spirit is full of illusions

And,

Now that I am out the confusion, the truth still ain't diffusing

its like i'm refusing to accept I suffered a contusion,

to my heart

God, I feared the day I had to part,

but maybe I wanted the part so bad I couldn't acknowledge the heart.

I won't be tart,

Life is about the new starts.

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