So Silence Fell

Stinging like gaping wound

To think you may never know

Just how much you meant to me ... still mean

The tears I spilled since, forever a mystery to you

If there was a way for me to send you a note

A message of regret … what would I say?

Do I tell you how I cry myself to sleep now?

That everyday things remind me of you

A rose of Lego … from you to me

Can’t bear to look upon it on that shelf,

Also would never be able to cast into the flame

The box of chocolates I got for you was easy

Eaten in a guilt ridden binge, and suffered for it

Cupcakes …

That was going to be ‘our’ thing … Cupcakes

I had decided, whenever we saw each other

There would be cupcakes …

Now the thought of them makes me sick

Because I never saw you again, all I have is

The screaming silence of your absence

...

How do I express to you how much I miss you

How much I want you back in my life

How I wish to go back and tear away those words

I saw your pain, saw your struggle

Did not wish to be a further burden

So silence fell

...

And I let go, hopeful one day

There may be cupcakes again

...

Will

There

Ever

Be

Cupcakes

Again?