"I'm just...happy. I've never felt that before I'm just exactly where I wanna be."
-Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004)
I'm just happy, so happy that I sought myself out
so I could explain all my worries and doubt.
I did see myself as an odd little stranger
who dared capture glances of those of my gender.
I feared for the way I could not blend in well
into masses of letter jackets and school pride hell.
I wanted to show my true colors galore,
for the pink of my flag is for me and for her.
The girl or trans girl who got away,
and no matter how hard I tried, she's engaged.
The bottom of my pride rings strong with blue
to show love for my men and trans men, too.
While the purple we fly does ring so high,
for it brings all together to scream that we're bi!
I wanted less fear, so I grew outspoken
and shared my heart with those who were closest.
The first, a parent, a parent who said,
"That's fine, but please, date boys instead."
The second, a guardian angel of sorts,
would say, "What is there to be upset for?"
"Does it matter?" she asked.
"No it doesn't. I love you."
She shook her head and said
"But that girl's got to go."
I've held onto pink for my comfort and strength,
while the blue promises protection at length.
The purple of us all lifts my spirit so far
that I cannot be harmed, they can't touch my heart.
Acceptance is scary and rejection is worse,
but living as me will always come first.
The colors that show the pride in my heart
are what carry me through all the shadows and dark.
Darkness expected when your love is unique,
but we cannot be silenced, so our colors still speak
of love.
About the Creator
Dani Banani
I write through the passion I have for how much the world around me inspires me, and I create so the world inside me can be manifested.
Mom of 4, Birth Mom of 1, LGBTQIA+, I <3 Love.
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