So Empty It Hurts

I get dizzy when I stand up

I feel weak all the time

I am nauseous every day

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But I’ve barely eaten anything

I think with a smile

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This is better than feeling so big

I could explode

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Throwing up because my stomach

has started to eat itself

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This is better, it means

my body is getting smaller

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Almost passing out multiple times a day

just from standing up

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is just a side effect

of trying to be skinny

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Trust me, it’ll all be worth it

I unfortunately think

as my stomach pulls in on itself

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crying for me to give it something

anything

just to keep me alive