Smiles

Today is all smiles. It's great to see that glimmer in your beautiful eyes. I wonder if I could persuade you to look past my imperfections? Not see the flaws I see in myself. Today is all smiles. I love to see you this way. I miss the way you used to look at me like I was something special to you. I want to be closer with you. I don't know how to get there. I feel like I am lost. I catch myself holding my breath. It gets hard to breathe. I hate wanting like this. It's like an addiction. Maybe worse even. I don't need to be anything but happy. I want you to believe me. I want you to see it in me. Why do you always make me feel this way?