Sinking Lull

sinking lull,

No lullabies

No arms to hold me

Hundreds of arms outstretched from me

I am frowning

Drowning

No one to hold me

I’m sinking in that drowned out lullaby

My mother whispered

I’m sinking in a lull

Of slow moving time

It’s like I am time itself and everything moves around me

I no longer believe I can have someone hold me without

Getting stuck in that sand trap

Of my condition

My ghost arms, like ghost mother

Cut through steel

Steel my heart

Sinking lull,

Ghost lullaby

My father closes out my lull

And I am just me,

Mariko, lonely and free.