She... is

She knew they were struggling with her being gone

And yet so was she but yet, she felt like she had to be strong

How could she move so many miles away and life not change in any way

But it had on so many levels and yet, she couldn't tell

As good as she was doing here, her stomach never felt well

It was as if there was a rope constantly pulling her in the opposite direction

The problem for her was in this place, no one saw her projection

Always a day late and a dollar behind

She just wished the world could be more kind

Forgiving for the past and lessening the guilt

Her children would never know how she truly felt

They needed to know she was well and doing her best

Not that it was them that prevented her from rest

Do you get it?

Can you see?

She had no real options to finally be free

It was here that her heart and soul were finally in sync

But it took everything inside of her not to let her emotions leak

Twelve states away was far too much distance in her eyes

But home to her was just a past fueled with lies

She thought of them often and cried more than they would know

All she was doing had a purpose, it was not just a show

So what would happen when she finally made it back

Would they love her in the now or remind her how much she lacked

I guess only time will tell and she shall see

Will they always love me?

I am sick and yet I am in the best shape I have ever been

Is it possible, for once, she will finally win?

Yeah... blah, blah blah

She came, she heard, she saw

The rest of the story just might surprise us all!