Shattered Colours

But I

Am kaleidoscope blasting

Every image in sight

Expanding

A rainbow of memories

Till all the pieces crack

Crack and crumble

There’s no sight in darkness

Only sound of the crack, the crumble

The smell of decay

The feel of emptiness

Sometimes I’m the flicker of light

Or the anti-arsonist of my own flame

It’s hard to always shine bright

Especially when depression echoes blame

But I

Am Kaleidoscope blasting

Every action etched in meaning

Etched in skin

My veins a map to every corner

Store it all deep inside

Storing myself in every place I’ve tried to hide

Sometimes plain sight painted red

Or

Wallpaper pasted on too (fuck) thick

The glue dribbles down

A reminder of how it all just leaks out of me

Sometimes I’m all patches

Haphazardly stuck together

Pieces that don’t quite fit

In a space too big for my own liking

A loud voice to mask the smallness I feel

The distance I place

Between myself and my own skin

Outstretched panic

Trapped in the inside of pink bubble gum

Blow me away

Like the leaves of a tree that just had to let go

Let me go

So I can drift across the twinkled lights

Of a kaleidoscope in motion

Everlasting