Secondary School

im naturally gifted

i don’t have to study.

so why am i struggling?

showered

with compliments

others gaze in awe

medals suffocate my neck

but in a good way after all

best in class for

english

chinese

math and

science

certificates clutter my walls

i walk home evryday

a smile on my face

holing an exam paper that says

100% like always

others look up to me

others are envious of me

but regardless

im smarter than them all

i step into secondary school

expecting to beat all

only to fall short

im not supposed to struggle

struggling is for the dumb

but perhaps i am the dumb

for

1 + 1 requires an explanation that

i cannot provide

the British founded port because of tea?

or spice?

carbon dioxide isn’t just air in the sky

but a chemical symbol

impossible

to decipher

eight

instead of four

subject

but still the same twenty four hours

the teacher asks

any questions?

but I don’t even know

enough about the topic

to

formulate one

my friends get full marks

while i struggle to pass

with bags under my eyes i go to school

every day

learning new things

when I haven’t even understood yesterday’s

why

how

what

who

which?

my brain doesn’t seem to comprehend

how do others do it?

im dying to know

because if I don’t know soon i may just end up dying

from x and y

O2

tectonic plates

trade rivalry

pronunciation

metaphors

because I’m supposed to smart

but I'm dumb.