Saying Goodbye
For Grandma D.
It was a Saturday, about a week before
and the room was hot.
I did not have much I could find to say,
my throat felt dry.
I stood near the window for a release
from the overwhelming heat.
It pained me to look over at you,
that sadness in your eyes.
You curled the phone cord around the fingers of your left hand
I remember that.
You did it the whole time we were there.
I wanted to tell you it was going to be okay,
I wanted to,
but I did not know how to find the words.
As we all left, everyone grabbed your hand and said their goodbyes.
I rehearsed my turn in my head
to make sure it felt right.
I squeezed your hand, "I love you so much", I said.
We all walked out
I thought about our goodbye
wondering if I’d have a chance to say it again.
This one didn’t feel right.
A week later
I look down at your still face,
the room was hot.
I find myself with this thought again
the true last goodbye.
I say the words in my head and I reach out for your hand,
Ice cold.
This did not feel right.
I try to say it again,
my hands shaking this time,
my weeps filling the quiet room while others stand by.
I don’t want to do this.
I study your face.
I can’t do this anymore.
I look again.
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