Same Old Fear

Same old fear

every waking moment

a slip backwards, my heart refuses to condone it

it’s a fight to continue moving forward

when thoughts become unsteady and the slip is real

same old fear

just an arm stretch away

deceiving to think its impossible to happen , impossible to heal

when blue skies light a path away

away from the pain that resides inside

same old fear

so I exhale

I take a deep breath

hoping the fears and pain dissipate

resolve

relinquishing my set back into a come back

fighting off the temptations

fighting off having to start again

same old fear

same old fear that turns into the same old excuses

just one day

the fear of it all

descending again into a world wind of a binge

a binge that eventually will ascend and transcend

to no end

same old fear.