Sadness was a place I call home
It was a place I knew very well
It all started one day at school
I was only five; it was a new school but the welcome band
didn't play their music, all I heard was some kids calling me names,
I didn't know what the word really meant,
but it stung like a bee.
The walls of the school started to be gray
and as the days passed, so did the walls of our home
I never told anyone how I was treated at school
but each time a kid called me gay,
was like a brick being added to the house that
would become home for many years
As the years went by,
whenever bad things happened, I took refuge inside my home
I felt safe here
the walls remained gray
but they were strong
It had become a big house
but I always found myself alone
It felt empty
but I slept deeply with my head rested on the walls
there were times in my life
when I would venture outside,
I see the sky is blue, the air is fresh,
and the sun shines
It happened when a man went off his way
to lure me to a road I seldom took
and when I had gone too far,
I didn't see my home,
I didn't feel any sadness
and yet I missed my home
I would always come back
In time, fate would bring me back to my home
as the color of my hair turned grey
in the company of my mother, who by this time
had gone sick and weak
my home was my refuge
when I could no longer see a future head on me
the days and nights are long
the air is cold
and yet it feels home
One day my mother is no longer here
she too had gone home
where someday we shall meet again
but for now, I hear her voice inside my home
she keeps me company at night
when my tears will never stop to flow
she holds my hand
just like the night before she died
One day I woke, all I hear is her voice
she tells me to open the windows and let the air come in
to look at the sky, where the bird flap their wings
she often comes in my dreams
and whispers in my ear
that it is safe to go out,
this is no longer your home
whatever I called it to be
it was sadness
it was emptiness
it was all in my mind
Every conversation I have now with Mom
a brick falls off, the tower
it feels smaller and smaller
the circle isn't as round as it used to be
maybe it is time to see what is in the outside
I opened the door
the wind smack right off my face
my Mom, in her voice, tells me
to step outside,
that she is waiting
I have to keep on walking if I want to be with her
never look back, she says.
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Illustration by: Lucija Rasonja from Pixabay
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