Sacrifice

I wanted to spoil her and give her back, full of candy and sweet rolls

Play games with her, read silly stories, and send her home to mama

But life has other plans

Addiction, pain, accidents

I think to myself where did I go wrong?

I raised them the same, with morals, work ethic, and fun

There were tough times , there were altercations, but I was always positive, upbeat , I wanted so much to be a mom

Where I would be treasured, and loved, Where they would come visit me,

Instead I am raising my grandchild, because my child cannot function

She cannot take care of herself, much less a child

Will I be good enough this time? I do not know what I did wrong the first

I kept up with family, amusements, maybe she was just too spoiled.

I look at her baby face, the grandchild I am raising and she is confident, secure and safe now.

Telling silly jokes, and dancing unabashed

I do not want her going backwards, where she used to scream at night

I am old and have old people's problems, but I want to better myself, for her

Maybe it is destiny, we both need to go through these things to be whole

I hope I see her graduate high school, and get married

I pray my daughter makes it through to understand

Sacrifice