ruins

i hate that you dream

without me.

does the night whisper in your ear?

i was quiet when you left

not because i had nothing to say

i had no more words

after i spilled them in your ears

and in your mouth

until my tongue grew weary

and my lips dried.

you never listened anyway.

i could’ve said

don’t leave

you are tearing me apart

my body aches without you

because your are part of me.

i closed my mouth

and swallowed instead.

you do not feel the longing

i feel

and if your bed does not feel empty without me

you do not need to hear

that i cannot sleep without you.

i loved a man who only loves himself.

and he ruined me.