I'm sitting here listening to Lana Del Ray
Trying to think of what to say
Because it is 2 am and I am not okay
I can't get you out of my mind
Even though we haven't talked in years
Remembering the sound of your voice still brings me to tears
Constantly, I worry about you
Mostly because I remember what the teacher assigned you as for the Christmas play at school
Rudolf the Red Nose Reindeer
Oh look.. Another tear
Don't worry, it's a happy tear
Not like you care
When I would tell you my problems, all you'd do is stare
Never trusting me enough to share
So, I stopped crying on your shoulder
Because it felt like talking to a bolder
But for some reason, even though I know you're out there somewhere breaking laws
I'd still defend you, saying, "Everyone has flaws."
Because I still remember you singing very off key to 'How to Love'
Just for me
I remember your little sister
I wonder how big she's grown
I'm remembering all of this alone
Because I'm pretty sure that you've forgotten my name
And how lucky you are to remain the same
A couple years ago, I met a boy
Just like you- even looks like you
So much like you that at first.. I thought it was you
He even, just like you, treats girls like me like toys
But I can't talk to him like I talked to you
Because his eyes look like your eyes
And I can't handle remembering how everyday you looked into mine and found it so easy to lie
The hardest part about remembering you is remembering that we were never together
So, you're lucky
You've found your treasure
While I am cursed to always remember
Our non-existent forever.
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