Reflexion.

I wake up and rub my eyes

Fighting with myself while I hit snooze another time

Get up at the last minute

Contemplating when I'll die

I'm torn between calling in or getting up, but if I try

I feel guilty cause I'm lying to the other guys

Saying that i feel sick but I'm just stuck and wiped

Paralyzed I feel tired from this ride

Every day I go outside but never to enjoy the light

I keep goin like the Energizer bunny lost and feelin kinda funny and when I'm done I'm so exhausted that I dont wanna do the fun things

I dont wanna write or paint or draw

I dont wanna bathe or wash the stale vibrations off

I just sit with em

A minute of

Relief for what is critical

The urgency to keep up with

This system I'm designed to drift beside and live like everything is for a cent

A sensation

Without it I'm so complacent

Without a spark in my hand I cant handle being adjacent

To the foods I consume

The chaos that I keep facin

Calm, collective

Though it feels like I'm going crazy

But I wake up.

I stay tough

I stay away from everything that makes me wanna blame ya

At least I try

I got to, its do or die

I'm vying for a moment where its only you and I

Me and mine

For a time

I just wanna be beside ya

But leaving makes me wanna cry

I dont wanna say goodbye

The thoughts become so scary when you know what's on the line

I give more than I can define

More than what can meet your eyes

I do things I never say and watch your back when I'm behind

I do it when you're not watching

Because that's how my love unwinds

I do it cause it proves to me that I love you without mind

Cause those that mind dont matter and those that matter dont mind

Cause Doctor Suess got me amused and he reminds me why I rhyme