Raindrops and Dreams

I descended from the heavens, my journey was clear and decided. I knew my plan and path; it was to bring great joy and strength to those below. I came down gracefully, my entrance was expected and much anticipated. The heavens burst with light and thunderous song as I escaped the last clouds having built myself up, strong and pure.

I pictured the marvelous landscape I’d find and the magnificent impact I’d have on it. I could already hear the exclamations of praises and thanks. Full of hope and tranquility that I was fulfilling my mission perfectly thus far, I continued onward picking up speed. The wind of triumph blowing gently past me, a glint of glorious rainbow bursting forth through the sky.

The thrill of the journey and anticipation of its much desired outcome pulled me closer to the finish line. I pondered on all the gathered resources, the time, perfect timing, and great effort by all around me including myself, that it took for me to even reach this point. Throwing all my weight into completing my one true goal, I reached down deeper than I ever had before.

I could feel my end destination now pulling me towards it even stronger, twisting, turning, and yearning for the new life and strength I was about to bring to their parched and dried roots. The others around me whistled and hummed their enthusiasm and excitement as well. A sound of glorious music filled the air, thumps, pings, and splashes began to serenade me.

Others near me also danced to the hypnotic beat, feeling the jubilation that soon we would all find our desired place in the world. Some in their delight and glee moved closer and closer together, eventually joining and now became as one. I continued on alone, my route still clear and set, pleasure pulsing through me the closer I got to my intended aspiration.

But, the wind began to howl and rage, my straight and perfect path was thrown awry. The pleasant sounds and dreams that once filled my soul with peace and contentment were now muted and dulled by the storm that stirred all about me. I was tossed and thrown in one direction then another, completely unsure of where my path would lead me.

I caught the tiniest touch of lush green beauty and, despite the lashing of the squall, for a moment thought my life’s purpose was still going to be accomplished. The marvelous touch flung me onward though, aided by the blast that kept me driving forth in a direction I did not care for. I was moving sideways and I feared I’d never find my sought for landing.

Suddenly, I smashed into a surface; hard, cold, metal had caught me in my aimless flight. This was not the soft, rich landscape I had always envisioned would accept my welcome gift of life and love. I wailed along with the wind that had changed my course and now continued to push me against this undesired end.

I longed to go the direction I felt I should, but the fierceness of the storm pushed me another way. The struggle left small pieces of my spirit scattered here and there. Unexpectedly, I was falling again, down, down, down to an unseen and unknown destination. An opening in the metal roof had swallowed me up, and with it all my visions of greatness.

New unfamiliar smells surrounded me, musty hay and manure. I plopped on some old, dry, dead wood and thought I would be sucked into its death grip, but I escaped, rolling off, and away I went again. I began to wonder, as I traveled on, if perhaps I was wrong and I should have let the dead pull me in and take away this miserable existence I had been forced to face.

A gentle, soft, wondrous form caught me as my mind tossed in confused chaos over lost dreams and death. It held me, and its silken love breathed new life and hope into my soul. It pulled me in closer and let me hug tight to its frame as I flowed towards its heart, my own now filling with exquisite happiness. The life I clung to breathed a heavy sigh of relief.

“Oh, sweet, extraordinary one,” it said in immense thankfulness, “I thought I was going to be lost forever, until you came. So many days I've struggled all alone in this old decaying barn. I’d catch glimpses of light now and then. Today, as I listened to the music of life beat down outside I was ready to give up when you touched me and filled my breast with unimaginable hope.”

I talked of my own difficult journey and the lost hopes and dreams as I traveled down it’s magnificent lines. I knew where I longed to be and as we shared our struggles and fears with one another I found the place and let myself join with and flow as one with this exceptional life. My once sought after goal was now long forgotten, in the exultation surrounding me.

Together we were stronger and better, and knew working together we would one day break forth from the barn, growing bigger and better. We would bring great nourishment and shelter to other struggling souls. The storm slowed and light shone on us from the hole above, a soft voice from the heavens chimed, “I knew your path and this is where you were most needed.”

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