Racing

My mind is racing

Racing thoughts are racing through my mind and I cannot contain them.

Don’t get too close! Don’t look too hard

You might see the sadness behind my eyes, might see what I try to hide.

Hide!! I have to hide what I think and what I feel.

Please, don’t get too close; If you get too close you will hear the voices in my mind, in my racing mind- the voices that tell me what a mess I am.

Mess.

The house is a mess. I forgot to empty the dishwasher and switch the laundry and the kids didn’t do their homework and I haven’t showered.

Shower? I need to shower. A shower will quiet my mind but I don’t have time. Time? I am out of time.

I have to go I have to move I have to do all of the things I NEED SPACE. I need to calm down, I’m overwhelmed.

Overwhelming, it is all so overwhelming life is overwhelming and the voices tell me I can’t handle it because I can’t handle anything because I’m a mess and my life is a wreck and please; don’t get too close.

If you get too close you might hear the voices that I try to quiet. If you get too close you might see the sadness that I try to hide.

I hide inside my mind;

My racing mind;

My mind is racing