Pulchritudinous

A. He says he can't help he's drawn to beautiful woman

B. I guess that's why he'll never be drawn to me

C. I have never truly been beautiful

(Sometimes when I hear his shallow words I can't help but think of you (A.C.) How you'd tell me "beauty is only skin deep". I think of when I was crying myself to sleep because I was hungry but starving myself to lose weight, all the times I've never felt like enough or even middle school when I compared myself to every girl around me. I hate to call you a liar but if I could I'd record his words and send them to you as proof. By the way, remember the letter you wrote me telling me how amazing you think I am? I wish I could tell you how small life has left me feeling and I'd hand over the proof... but your gone. I only wish I could tell how wrong you were. All of this comes to mind when I hear his shallow words. I have a feeling I shouldn't be writing this but these thoughts sure burn a hole in my mind.)