Psychological Ramblings
I am not a person of mediocre feeling.
somebody said they liked my hair today.
the snow was falling and i was seeking refuge
in a winter blanket.
all these people seem so put-together,
working with purpose,
strutting with the kind of self-assuredness i can only dream of.
i enjoy becoming invisible
in overwhelming crowds
sometimes i wish the walls would open up and pull me inside
and i don't want to die.
hey, mom! i left my house and i survived! aren't you proud?
somebody with beautiful cerulean eyes looked at me and i
fell in love
faster than i fall asleep.
the moon was gleaming and i was getting high again
to ponder upon the meaning of life.
in this city
i have not a friend to speak of
so i speak to the shadows on my floor instead
and i scribble frantically
the writings of the hermit.
hey, mom! i spoke to a human being and i didn't cry! aren't you proud?
when i was a little girl i dreamt of fame and being loved
by everybody. now that i am grown i only want
to be loved by myself.
the pitter patter of the rain was thumping and i was
waking in a frenzied rush and
trying to gather my wits again.
i dream in bursts of uncontrolled feeling
sometimes they seem so real i could swear i
didn't dream them at all.
i read books i've lived a thousand lives.
hey, everyone! i'm pretending to be like you! aren't i doing a good job?
somebody laughed at a joke i told.
wherever i go i am wandering without a purpose
or a clue
trying to determine whether i fit in or stand out.
nobody really fits in anywhere
but i am comfortable living in solitude.
my six year old told me
he loves me
so i must be doing something right.
i told a joke and everybody laughed.
somebody said they liked my hair today.
the snow was falling and i was a paradox
About the Creator
ghostsandrebels
i'm a a queer writer, poet, cat lover, and author. i'm passionate about psychology, human rights, and creating places where lgbt+ youth and young adults feel safe, represented, and supported.
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