Pray

Why is it that during the hardest times

Is when I forget to pray the most?

Instead I seek refuge in my anxieties

And misconceptions of reality.

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Unfurling all the complexities

I've compartmentalized in my mind.

Treading more carefully in some areas than others,

Careful not to step on the cracks.

*Audible Shatter*

Oops.

Maybe not always so careful.

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There goes my sanity yet again,

Flying off, and far out of my reach.

Trying not to let this void consume what's left of me.

The lack of illumination is beginning to unsettle me,

Bracing for the impact of what is destined to come.

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Cherishing the moments I find warmth

From that little spark of hope that still resides.

Searching for the peace to reconcile with my past

Instead of continuing to resentfully juggle my demons.

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Fighting every day to choose love over pain

Because life is charging me by the moment.

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